Six weeks, 200+ people, intense Bible courses and training, living in the dorm, eating at a cafeteria, and homework or games every night. How much can one person change after going through all that? I am not sure.
In a sense, I hope that I was changed by all this. It would be kind of pathetic to spend all that time and energy without seeing any growth. However, part of me is scared to find that out when I get back to my usual habitat. It's scary to be the only person who seems to have changed in your usual environment. But then, I guess we are all constantly changing as surely as time goes by.
How do you know that you've changed? And how do you know that it's a good change?
In a sense, I hope that I was changed by all this. It would be kind of pathetic to spend all that time and energy without seeing any growth. However, part of me is scared to find that out when I get back to my usual habitat. It's scary to be the only person who seems to have changed in your usual environment. But then, I guess we are all constantly changing as surely as time goes by.
How do you know that you've changed? And how do you know that it's a good change?
Jane, you express your thoughts so well. I appreciate your vulnerability. I feel very similar... I would love to talk about this with you more sometime, especially since you're home now.
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